my life up until now……

Haii well as i wrote in about my blog, I wanna tell you about my life and how i survived it.
So here is the first post about my life and what i did to stay calm and get thru it.
I apologize ahead for my spelling mistakes cause my english grammer aint that well.

Well i dont think you wanna know how my life was from when i was born so ill start with when it got hard and im not gonna tell all the details but i do wanna share with you guys how i got thru it all and how i regret how i handled it.

well my life has been a mess sinds i can remember but i learned from it.
my parent got devorced and my sister has anger problems so my mom was always busy with her and my dad always fighting and just pushed me to the side like i wasn’t important enough so i always sat in my room and never really interacted with my family and i really regret that now i wish i had opended my mouth and said something about it to someone.
this all changed when we went to live at my grandma’s place my grandma was my everything she was there for me and my mom couldn’t push me aside anymore and that created a lot of tension so i desided to leave.
but after i left my grandma got sicker and eventualy had to go to the hospital.
when i visited her i wasn’t worried because sinds i can remember she was in and out of the hospital and she always came back home.
but this time was worse.
when i visited her the day before she passed she said to me that she wanted me to promisse her that if she didn’t come home that i would move back to my mom. and ik promised her.
So i went back because the next day she passed away.
now i live in a place where i have like people watch over me so that if i make a mistake with my finances and stuff they can help me.
because i still dont get allong with my mom.

so now you know about a bit of my life i wanna tel you how i got thru it all
one off the things i did was i shut myself completly off off the world.
please dont make that same mistake speak up tell your famely or friends how you feel so they cam help u cause if you shut yourself off someday you will break and that does more harm then you can handle cause it will hurt you and the people you care about.
i also started hurting myself because i wanted to block away the pain of being all alone
i really regret that cause its adictive and it hurt my friends seeing me like that although most didn’t notice the ones who did were hurt by seeing me like that.
now i solve my problems by saying whats on my mind to my family to everyone and they dont always like what i say but its better for me to say it instead of keeping it in.

so i hope with this you get to know me a bit and you will keep followin me
sorry for the long post i will post at least every week with tips about stuff about life about things that happend to me and some more this is my first blog so i apollogize for my bad grammar and the different things i post.
if you want tips on something specific just ask me in a comment if i know something about it i will write about it
my post will sometimes be long and sometimes short


well i hope you will follow me from now on

xx LiftYourHeartUp <3<3